charmaine

FRREEDDOMMMMM

2010-11-10T22:41:00.002+08:00

finally !!! all the hardcore subjects is over ,
aiya mcq also nth wan (:
art today was super screwed didnt get the outcome i want , i am glad everyth is over :D
these few days must go find prom things liao ,
my tuition teacher lend me a prom dress , but its quite short not sure if i should buy a new one .
hmm , am worrying more about prom than o level now lols .
totally holiday mood already ..

got so much things to do after Os .
most impt of all is the taiwan trip and kiddo :D (decided to use this name after much consideration) cant wait !
intending to change my blog abit but all these have to wait . i am super lazy .

2 more days before the real freedom comes .

2010-11-08T19:36:00.002+08:00

charmaine nai ! just 2 more freaking days and everything is gonna be over . please dont give up at this point of time . it is just 2 more late nights ! you have done it for the past few weeks just a few more days to go being geog or art just get all over it jiayou !!!!!

here i am

2010-11-07T15:57:00.003+08:00

its already a sunday .
and i finally have the study mood compared to the last few days
yea but i know it is abit late now ..
lols i will just have to put the art at the back of my mind for now .
dun even feel like touching it ...
okay , ss i am gonna finished you off today , here i come !

jiayou charmaine !４more days :D

time time time

2010-11-04T23:01:00.005+08:00

though most of the papers have passed , i am still super stress now .
because i haven study anyth ytd and today ! i think i am so screwed luhs .
at first wanted to do art , but after 5mins give up , haven even drew one new drawing yet ...
art seriously make me no mood to study at all ..
argh i must seriously do smth today ..

plan today
1)finish development essay
2)read thru d&d

i am so so gonna complete this two by today
and i am going to chiong full scale tmr ;D
jiayou charmaine !

and yea , i recieved 2 present for my bade
one from clique a haivaianas slipper and from i shan planner .
great present :D as i have longed to have a somehow branded slipper lols
and a planner can be put into good use when i am poly :D
must thank them for the wonderful presents (:

feel like my course is so far away , really hope i can get into the course
but did not really do well for my papers this time ..
humanities please do well next week ! kao ni le !!!

2010-11-02T21:32:00.002+08:00

read thru all my posts , times flies and so many things have changed .
i have been talking about my targets from jan ...
from wanting to get all subjs pass to getting at least all Bs to getting 14points...13 points and finally 10points . there is so much all of us have been thru during this one year ..
cant believe i set up my target as early as start of January ..
i am so stressed up now . esp bio .. feel like giving up ..
but how can i possibly give up on bio when i am going into a bio course ..
i feel like giving up soon , i need time , more time to keep me going ......

thanks for making me awake

2010-11-02T16:44:00.003+08:00

had super lots of fun ytd .
must really thanks all the pple who come into my house and gave such a pleasant surprise
so happy luhs :D haas have thank them alot of times liao no need put name here liao bahs . haas (: all those who wished me really appreciated it .

lets talk about Os and exam stress . i think most of my posts this year are smth to do with all these . lols but its okay it will be over in a week time .
i duno why am i being so positive when i have freaking bio and history paper tmr and here am i still blogging . sigh .. geop paper today was hard compared prelims . though platetech is easy
but cant believe i didnt read in detail for the fold mountains even there is alr hints about it .
stupid me ! lose quite alot of marks because of that . must really work hard for paper2
because i seriously have no confidence at all for my comb.humanities ..
charmaine nai ! jiayou !!! dun watch drama liao wait till nov 12th !
lols must cui mian myself already . yea at my pace of studying , i think i am gonna sleep late today again, goodluck .

thanks alot, really
because i have totally waken up now
and yea , you made me who i am today

fighter

2010-10-29T23:39:00.004+08:00

one week of o levels is gone . still super stress because all the humanities is coming up next .
super alot to study sia .
eng was like super diff luhs ,
maths paper 1 gg , paper 2 okay .
chem hmm quite alot of careless :x
seriously no time to study so many subjs in 3 days only ..

oh yeah just now entertain myself by commenting on my idol facebook hees ;D
and he replied :D so happy luhs . just giving myself abit of entertainment (:
tmr night eating my family advanced bdae celebration woots ! also can destress abit . haas

tuesday is the start of another paper .
and the fight goes on ...

beginings

2010-10-17T18:53:00.002+08:00

till now then i realise , every little things means smth , any wrong word and action u say or do makes a big diff . mayb i am wrong , so wrong , to think everyth can still happen smoothly . i dun feel like myself at all . all these exams stress is making me .. idk ..
i hope as time start nearing , everything will not go haywire . just 27 days to go before we officially leave these school . i shall just bring happy memories with me and leave all the bad thing behind...

This could be nothing, but I'm willing to give it a try

bottomless pit

2010-10-11T22:38:00.003+08:00

the moment i switched on my com , i know i will be wasting another day .
and yea , the whole of today wasted . but i told myself this would be the last time i am using com on weekdays . left exactly 2 more weeks before the real paper start . i have totally no confidence at all , though i may achieve quite a good result this time but i know o level is a whole lot different thing . seriously hoped i wun screwed my o level . i havent even started any humanities yet . time is really running out .

下个星期一就要毕业了突然有很多的感触曾经有一段时间我真的好想离开这间学校，觉得这里没有什么好留念的但当毕业的日子一天一天的逼近我才发现原来我是感到多么的不舍朋友和老师在这段时间都让我领悟到了好多事情直到毕业当天我就必须需变得更成熟要懂得怎么靠自己不要每次依赖别人.虽然有时在学校又不快乐的时候但我现在就有感到一点不舍了我希望olevels 可以拿到很好的成绩在多一个月我一定要撑下去!!!

have a sudden urge to type in chinese i shall type more in chinese next time (:

all those good and bad times , there is so much memories left for us to reflect .
thinking back of the past , i realised how much i have changed w/o myself even knowing .
really hope Os will be over soon , just thinking about how much little time we have left to study make me super stress , but at the same time , i still wished that it will end soon .
argh , seriously have no confidence , and my course only have a intake of 40 pple .
chances are so slim ...
things are always not going smoothly for me , please let everything end smoothly for once ...

dreaming out loud

2010-10-06T18:19:00.004+08:00

talented girl .too bad she opt out of the competition due to personal reasons :(

school was super boring these days . work is piling up everyday for us to do ..
but i know that all these is necessary . count down . 15 more days to go for practical .
time is passing so fast now , and at most after 1 month plus we will all be free :D
am thinking positively right now but the truth is i am still not really studying hard enough and
there is still not much content getting into my head .

still considering whether to go prom , because it is like alot of hassle to prepare everything like dress shoes hair .. all these total up sure cost a bomb .
was spending alot of money recently .
i should seriously start saving now . i have super lots of thing i want to buy after Os (:
so i must seriously get started now before everything is too late . i shall chiong like a bullet train (:(:(:

break ?

2010-09-21T21:00:00.002+08:00

i do not know how people can control themselves for not using com for one month when i cannot even control for at least a week .

i am taking a break though i do not deserve it .
yeah . fear of losing chances ? regrets ?
unimaginable .

WAKE UP

2010-09-17T20:22:00.002+08:00

life is really crap nowadays , esp these few days of art is seriously going to make me explode anytime . hate it when i have to do smth i dun even like at all and today is stilll not the end .
i will still have to be with this subj for one more month plus ..
prelims is still okay but i think i am slacking more compared to mid yr . my history is seriously screwed for the first time ? i have a feeling that my l1r4 wld be more than 15 this time .
when can o level end ? seriously wanted to enjoy life after o levels , have loads of stuff i wanted to do , but there is still a TALL barrier to overcome.. argh .. o levels PLEASE END SOON !!!

take it slow

2010-09-01T20:34:00.002+08:00

okay , today was a super stressful day .
dun even feel like waking up because i know the moment i open my eyes i will have to start rummaging thru my ss notes and study .
thinking of it makes me frustrated and even irritated !!
i was even stressful abt ss when i was sleeping .
so yea , manage to drag myself out of my bed which then i realise is only 9 plus am when i thought is alr noon .
and from 9 to 2 i was watching tv , using com , doing anyth execpt to get down to work .
its super frustrating luhs .
and till now i have only completed sri lanka and cant get venice into my head .
oh please please let everyth into my head tmr , and chi format too
just needed some time and some place to vent my frustrations ...
shall get back on to study ..

for my dream , i wun give up , because it will be a reality soon (:

choices

2010-08-27T21:57:00.002+08:00

been thinking through alot these past few days , thinking that if i really have such a big ambition . to be able to do whatever it takes even if it must be in overseas , thinking whether i should even start working hard to such a tough and challenging job . i haven decide yet , but i am determined to realise my dream even if i cant go into my desired course . thats what i have decided after so much of hesitation . i dun think i can do it now , because i am not trying my best , even if i have targets i do not have the willpower to fufill it , what i should do , i hope there is still chance as long i do not give up ...

2010-08-20T19:55:00.003+08:00

came across this picture in google , true true , thats why i love animals so much (:

its another friday today . prelims is less than 2 weeks away , art is only half completed ,
my eng oral cant be any worse , life aint smooth at all .
since that oral , which is probably the worst day for this year , the moment i reach home ,what i do is just watch tv and sleep . thinking that i am not gonna reach my targeted points , thinking of other alternatives if i cant get into my course , thinking of many things except to study . its so stressful that i cant seem to concentrate on anything .

confidence , where are all the confidence i previously had . oh , please help me get over this stage , once and for all .

不完美的完美

2010-08-10T21:42:00.005+08:00

omg cant believe i am chionging this show at this point of time.
decided to watch it after seeing a part of it through tv . halfway through only .. its super nice (:

holiday was not really well spent at all , spent my days at home slacking i guess .
tried to do some maths and science and the max i could stay still and write is like only half an hour super fail sia . prelims is like less than one month . o level less than 3mth .

time is like flying now , it is a total different feeling when u are still in jan or march .
you will feel that time is passing very slow and that o level is still a long way to go at that time. it's totally the opp right now ..
must really really really start studying this time ..

suddenly feel that our sch prelim period is very slow . other schs have alr finished ther prelims already .. so fast luhs ..
oral is coming ,the first barrier to overcome ..

argh , feel so crap now .
staying home srsly did not motivate me to study .
this is the first time , shockingly , that i am anticipating school .

the anxiousness of waiting ..

2010-07-27T22:25:00.002+08:00

it is a long day today .. though many teachers nvr come .
i have been waiting for the news to come to
but my phone has nth , no sound , nth at all ..
i hate to wait..there will be no results everytime i waited and wished for smth to happen.
i have been experiencing it for like a few times .
when you say there is butterflies in your stomach , it really feel that way though .
you are so nervous that ur stomach feels so queasy . i hate this kind of feeling .
things are so limited nowadays . dreams are even more harder to achieve .
when will that day even come ....

hey come back to ur old self , please .

countdown

2010-07-18T23:11:00.004+08:00

check the videos out ! she is super talented .

it is like 11 plus alr and i am still using com lols .
still quite awake now yeas .
things had been the same this week , but extra fun days like xh bdae celebration and bugis trips blablabla ...
have been playing too much srsly .
friday went grandma hse celebrate cousin bdae , so lively luhs ,
haven been so relax for a long time . it is good to spent some family day . haas
i suddenly felt that i want to stay at home more than anyth else , i want my family more than others . all these seems so impt .
friends are also so impt to me , cant imagine sitting alone in classroom studying . it would be crazy yea ..

all those mistakes i have made , it is a fact that it cant be change now ,
and i am still making mistakes even though i know it is wrong , i know not everyth i do is correct , but i really dunno how to make everyth perfect at one go . sorry ...
i will just take one step at a time , i will try my best not to let anyth affect me ..
i kept repeating it to myself like a tape recorder , all these words are for myself , just wanna reflect , all the stupid things that i made throughout these years , how childish i can get . but , i realise how happy i can also get last time , why is sec4 so tough , why is there so many things to worry about , there are so much things other than studies that is needed to be taken care of ..
i shld not be trying so hard , cause i will be making things even worse in the end .

2010-07-11T21:53:00.003+08:00

weekend is not really well spent at all , ytd early morning when msia with my mother aunt and cousin , walk around but all the things there damn expensive , didnt really buy anything .
cant believe i slept all the way to the next morning went i reach home . regretted the moment i woke up . at least did some hmwk today , but have not really open up my books and read yet .
jiayou bah , charmaine !!

haas , shall stop all these complaining , watched 2am on tv in the sheng shiong show ,
their singing nth to say , super nice . (:

weekends doesnt become a privilege anymore ..
不是每个事情都是一加一，努力就有结局...

it doesnt hurt to try

2010-07-09T23:04:00.002+08:00

just applied for dpa .. use super simple english , wanted to ask teachers or friends for help , but suan le ba , now also weekend le . no time ask teacher , i also cant wait for mon , cause also going end le .. but it is okay , at least i tried .
though the chances of being selected is like 1/1000000 , but i at least manage to type out 600 characters by myself , though i may not be selected . but at least i have no regrets (:
at the most i will just study hard and get the cut off point of the course .

so . trying my best to be enthu this week in sch , must get myself the mood to study , but it is always until 12plus then my eyes closing already lols . everyday till 4.30 , by the time do finish hmwk bathe eat , also no time to take a nap alr lols . but it's okay 4 more months . must hang in there !

i mayb ignorant abt many things , but at least i am not dumb . i know my limits.
i may get affected by trivial matters . but i told myself , i shall not be affected by anyth , i want to have my own stand , this marathon is coming to the end and a new journey is starting . what for caring abt trivial matters ? what for being so affected by small little things ? everyth comes into an end in the end . things will have a new start . and i am hoping for that day to come .

picking up

2010-06-29T19:01:00.003+08:00

so long nvr update le . june holidays was fun , esp the guangzhou trip . shall elaborate the next time. sch was so tiring these days , everyday till 4.30 .. damn tired luhs . hmwk and more hmwk rolling in , tests coming , and alot more new topics to learn. and prelims is coming less than 3 months ..
its like super stress luhs , but schling is better as we will not slack at home like the june holidays -.- didnt even study at all .. though having long hours at sch is tiring , but because of o levels .
must chiong le , hope that 4months efforts is worthwhile .

i will try my best , even if i know it is quite impossible , but as long as there is a chance .
i will go for it , there is only one choice i want , nothing else .

DPA or not ...............?

2010-06-16T23:35:00.003+08:00

i am so bored now , went out with wenxi today :D
after that went to celebrate my father bdae at some restaurant in jurong , the food there super shiok ! haas . tmr will most likely be staying home , feeling like chionging drama but no nice show lately . all must wait one wk .. damn sian luhs , must do finish tution and sch hmwk as soon as possible . friday going guangzhou haas hope it will be a satisfying trip (:

haas advertising this show once more again . but this show is so nice luhs .
it is a different storyline than other ou xiang ju
and huang xiao ming so shuai luhs ! haas .
but every week one epi only it is freaking slow .
the show is very touching .. it is a must watch ! (:

chalet (:

2010-06-15T22:04:00.003+08:00

went to dovin chalet on sunday and monday , haas fun but super tiring luhs .
long time nvr hang out with them liao . first day mostly bbq , stay inside the chalet play ps2 . lols .. the bball and guitar hero is seriously fun . went to redhouse in the middle of the night .
was not so scared first but everyone starts telling scary stories and the atmosphere was like ...
super scary luhs , but we didnt do anyth there see see liao then went back le .
camp at a corner of downtown after that , talk alot of things luhs , said alot of scary stories , gossip .. etc . went back at chalet only at 7 plus .
freaking slept for 2hours plus only luhs . haas .
went to wild wild wet the next day . quite fun luhs , the family slide(?) is super fun .
but didnt get to sit the u shape thing cause it is so high, to me luhs lols . quite regretful but overall wwe is a fun place to go :D went home after that .
was super road idiot , if not for xh and hl , i dun think i will know how to get to the mrt station :x the mrt journey was like freaking 1 hr plus , stand for 3/4 of the journey , damn sian luhs . could not even sleep while standing . slept from 10pm-12pm when come back home . overall it was fun going to the chalet , the bbq was damn shiok! haas

feeling damn guilty now .. have not been studying for the last 2weeks , i shall start nxt wk ba . going out tmr . shall have fun this week (:

my fear of height . is that even phobia ? i guess not .
i am just scared luhs , i must do it someday if not i will be so sorry to myself .
more determined now after seeing wgm jo kwon and gain did bungee jumping wth luhs !
its freaking scary man . no way i am gonna try that . i shall try the smaller ones first ....

SOMEDAY .

2010-06-12T14:29:00.002+08:00

had fun with them ytd , though the drama is super boring =.=

behind the scenes

2010-06-10T20:18:00.007+08:00

just finish watching tou xin ps da sheng nan haas . quite nice luhs , but need every week wait one episode super sian luhs .
anw there is another new show call pao mo zhi xia is also quite nice luhs .
acted by da s huang xiao ming and another guy haas

dont really can pronouce his name but the show is quite cool luhs i think .
storyline is very interesting :D

so , went to eat jack place with ms and kong after sch , waited 15mins for the student meal ,
have fun with them yea , the chicken cutlet is superb ! HAHA
reach home around 4plus .
our class is making a hoodie , the font seems quite nice , hope the hoodie will come out well this time (:

sometimes , i really want to control the things way are ,

but i cant ....

2010-06-08T19:17:00.003+08:00

sch was per normal today , today lessons was not so tedious compared to the last few days .
expt for ss , other lessons was fine .
the venice chapt need abit more time to absorb luhs , half understand only haas .
his finally completed the whole book already .
though i cant believe it myself , but history is one of the subj that i am more interested in HAHA weird eh ? compared to sciences and languages , it is way more interesting .
after sch art . went opp to buy a packet of sweets to prevent myself from dozing off haas .
i think i am eating too much sweets le luhs . everyday one big packet , wth .
sweets is so addictive seriously , its the thing that keeps me awake the whole day (:
did not slack in art today. but for 2 whole hours . i only freaking completed drawing one box.
haas nice one .
but it is okay , i hope that i can start the canvas tmr , i must speed up my artwork seriously .

sch,eat,use com,sleep has been a daily life routine for me . it will just be w/o the sch for the nxt 2weeks . when is there smth new ...

have been trying to save money but quite fail uh .

its a long way to go but i 'll keep trying .

as my tution teacher say ,

go for the moon , even if you didnt reach it in the end , you'll still end up on the stars

2010-06-05T19:33:00.004+08:00

me:"the meatballs can all pork dun wan beef?'"
waiter:"this is pork and beef meatball"
me:"i know . but i wan pork only ."
waiter:"the meatball is the mix of beef and pork"
me:...*laughs and walk away*

stupid conversation i had at ikea in the morning LOLS

didnt know meatball had a mix of pork and beef haas
bobian gave 3/4 of meatballs to my bro in the end .
make new passport at lavender in the morning for the trip to guangzhou few weeks more :D
another trip for me to be stress free (:
headed to changi and ikea after updating passport .
this is how i spent my saturday morning . lols
having tution tmr , haven even complete anything yet .

STRESS ~

just get over it, it is going to end someday .

seoul garden !

2010-06-04T17:40:00.000+08:00

ate seoul garden with tabletennis mates after sch super nice ! haas
btw,found out that one of them have never eaten steamboat in her whole life !! LOLS
was laughing non stop when i heard that .
the lala and cockles shiok :Date lots of it lols ..

i wan to buy an itouch

i wan to buy alot of stuffs !

everything will have to wait ;

when will that day every come ?

2010-06-02T22:36:00.000+08:00

just pack my room for like 1hr plus . dusts was everywhr in my room lols .
quite alot of wkshts clear and my room finally have more space now ! (:
was suppose to like do some studying today but clearing my room has allow me to procrastinate . haas i am just go lazy luhs ...
sch was boring to the max today . ss his bio , how much fun could u expect .
bio is super boring luhs , cant really concentrate during lessons , felt like sleeping .
tmr another 2hours of bio . omg , i think i am gonna start hating biology sooner or later .
reproduction of plant is super boring . hope we can faster skip to other chapters too .
didnt went for paul and ck celebration .i am too tired , sleep throughout the afternoon .
anw , happy birthday to the both of them :D

lacking by a few more points ,
argh , getting more stress as days pass by .
buck up !

the real thing starts tomorrow .

2010-05-31T21:08:00.000+08:00

went to kbox with ms yq jas today , finally a time to have fun after staying at home for so many days . yq can finally relax as her o level chinese just finished , it seems like today is the day when o level is already over . but when u come to think about it , it is only months away left . i am always stressing myself lols , abt the dpa and everything . sigh.. when can o level really end ? after the last paper ended i think it will surely be the happiest day in my life . haas .
but it's okay , i shall work hard from now , to get in the courses i wanted (: i will make sure i wun have to think abt a second choice .

yea.. so tmr chem? 2 hours ???
i will make it :D

wake up & face reality

2010-05-27T15:53:00.000+08:00

it all seems impossible now , such simple dreams yet it's getting so hard to achieve it
thought abt the future everyday , but the next day when you wake up , you realise that you are so far away from it . it may not even happen . so whats for holding on ur dreams , it all comes down to reality after that . is it even possible ... asking myself everytime and then .
and all i can do it try my best ...

i have found a place in my life
and that's it .

its just not the way you wanted it to be

2010-05-20T19:34:00.000+08:00

so , gotten back most of my results except art .
was quite satisfied with my results esp history (:
nvr expect eng to get b4 :D so quite happy luhs haas
today is the last day of training . happy luhs ,
not sure if i will even play tabletennis again , mayb its really not my interest .
this week totally slacking , 4 periods chinese always made me restless at the start of the day .
shall start studying maube nxt week or june holidays haas .
which is like 2weeks holidays only , rest of the week is camp success WTH luhs .

prelim and 'o' level is coming . should really start to study hard now .
i am still not trying hard enough .
nvr realise that i have become so dependent till today ,
seriously dun wan to disappoint my family .
suddenly realise that i had to hold big responsibility towards my family .
i need to work hard now , though i duno what the future beholds .
have u experience that kind of feeling when u suddenly feel so stressed and despair .
but not knowing what caused all these feelings .
have been experiencing it often recently .
everytime after sch just feeling like going home use com and sleep .
dun even feel like hanging long hours outside anymore .
its just a weird feeling huh ?
i guess , everyth will start to get better after 'o's .
yea . jiayou !

one more week !

2010-05-07T21:55:00.001+08:00

one week of exam is finally over , still got another wk to chiong .
this whole wk of exams quite screwed luhs , situational nvr read qn properly , ss write wrong ans . chi also interpret qn wrongly . super suay luhs .
as for geog , just hope for a pass (:
english must pass sia , most impt subj liao .
nxt wk is the sciences and maths , the toughest of all , hope will not fail any subj this time .
today went to eat sakura with family to celebrate advanced mother day HAHA
shiok :D super full now .
just heard from a radio a very stupid thing .
the first tip for studying is to open a book .
lols , it is quite lame but true luhs . if u nvr made the first step to opening a bk u will not even study anyth luhs .
haas . the radio also says the book like have some force when you go near the book you will suddenly feel hungry , and suddenly feeling hot wanting to take a bath .
haas get what it means . okay i know its very lame but somehow its quite true .
at least it manage to make it laugh LOLS .
will use computer for the whole day today and chiong tmr .
no studying on fridays ;D

suddenly hope that o levels will end soon . i am like desperate for a dog now . haas .
i am also looking forward to find a job that have smth to do with pets at the end of the year (: but its like very diff to find luhs after that 'past' experience . but nvm , i shall work hard to find one.
it somehow distracts me instead of motivating me to study when thinking abt it .
sigh .. 5more mths to endure .. hope that i can overcome my o levels !

entertainments

2010-04-20T20:59:00.000+08:00

though this song is not the full song but its nice !　
the voice obviously not blue's one but is nice luhs . lols
watch videos for the whole day after reaching home .
2am is super funny , their videos can make you laugh non stop , esp jo kwon (:
he so cute luhs .

this year is gonna be a boring year , till o levels .
wonder how can i survive with the pressure thats increasing day by day .
just find out from mdm ng that geog or combine humans can be use for l1r4 .
duno which one to use , must work hard for both subjs .

life is full of ups and downs ,
i always tell myself to cherish ppl that is around me ,
but seems that i am not doing so well at all .
though ppl may not see it , but i feel that i am such a failure .
comparison kills .
the more i wan to concentrate , the more i feel more distracted .
i am always thinking about the same things over and over again .
action speaks louder than words , but i am not doing it so .
i insist on what i believe , even if its wrong in the end ,
but at least i am not the type of person that will just follow others blindly .
get a life , i told myself
things wont be so lifeless , its just probably one of ur down days out of so many up ones .
i guess , life isnt so bad after all .

its gone when you want to

2010-04-16T21:21:00.000+08:00

in love with him !!! he is so cool luhs haas .

haas i am super random , started to listen to korean songs recently . 2am songs , super nice !
like jo kwon voice , he and gain so cute luhs , in we got married :D

sch was fun today .
but the weather was still freaking hot luhs ,
lessons per normal , had bio test . got confident of passing (:
haas , went to gym with ms and yq after ss lecture .
ran 2.4 km and its still 16 plus mins .. sian
super tired after that , went mos to eat with them .
have to thank them for lending me money :D
had fun chatting and joking around with them , talk about animals like fishes DOGS
lizards caterpillar and other random stuffs .
was talking about the caterpillar who turn itself into the cocoon and never turn into a butterfly.
super funny luhs . had fun going out with them (:

i like both the song and show , super nice .

its friday today and i have decided to be stress free still tmr
still deciding whether to go art anot .
but one thing i know for sure

my art is screwed

2010-04-15T20:55:00.000+08:00

i was wrong , to still hope for that day .
its just that moment , then i realise its all impossible .
everything looks peaceful , but i am still feeling so troubled .
and i dun even know why , its like many things crumpled together and i dun even know where the problems lies .
maybe i am just thinking too complicated .
i am just stuffing all my feelings inside .
and i duno even know how to express it out .
those words seems ridiculous , why do i even bother .

its the last time i guess .
i need the courage and i think i can do it .

new perspective

2010-04-15T00:27:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY KARTINI ! long time nvr post , just a few mths to go before o levels ,
everyday is passing by quickly and the stress is coming up .
had to overcome mid yr and prelims first , things was normal in sch bt somehow i felt restless .
esp after coming back from kl .
had 2.4 AGAIN today , damn sian luhs , but todays timing btr then previous , 16plus .
slow but at least i passed . haas .
ate at sch and went wenxi house for tuition .
today lessons cannot really absorb luhs . was feeling damn tired ..

things are stable now , i do not know whats happening but i know things have changed ,
and sometimes i do not know what to do , how to face myself , how to be braver .
how to get out of something that i have been trying so hard to .
maybe one day , when i finally know how to lead my own life
i will then be contented .

2010-03-10T20:12:00.000+08:00

sch was normal as usual today ,
and the weather seriously helps to keep people minds peaceful
had lessons till 12 only due to competition haas
shiok eh , pe lessons was boring
it was held in class due to heavy rain .
was seriously not concentrating on bio lessons ,
was distracted in talking and so on
damn sian luhs , there is still two long days before the holidays ,
lessons is getting more boring everyday and i am totally slacking for this week ..

anw , competition with river valley today , lose 5-0 AGAIN!
damn sian luhs , but at least me and jas won one set ,
but i am still quite disappointed luhs , thought can win de luhs .
but nvm , at least we made it to the nationals (:
wen hub to eat with huili and yuanlin after training
yuan lin super funny luhs , esp when she talk with a 'china' accent . haas
had fun crapping with them ,

tmr sports heats , dieeee
no shoes to run now , was hoping that tabletennis shoe will work in the stadium .lols
first time running , so nervous luhs .
i can imagine myself falling down or lagging far behind the rest lols
lucky i only took part in relay . haas
hope the weather will be good tmr (:

all these meant nothing , i wish to say out loud everything , everything that can make me be myself again , everything that can make me feel comfortable . but i know i cant , and its just freaking piss myself off . i can think of 1000 of possibilities in my mind , but none will came true , things just arent what i want it to be ...

messed up

2010-03-06T22:20:00.000+08:00

went out with sarah today , walk around bugis to find her fren present
watch a movie acted by taiwan/hk/shanghai people , super nice (:

match on monday , lucky play back double already .
shall just do my best

whats wrong with my attitdude , but i dun even know how to change .

i did not even intend to feel this way , this sucks .

2010-03-03T19:35:00.000+08:00

the dog very cute right haas .

was taken at my cousin house .
my bro dun dare to touch it at first but in the end manage too overcome his fear HAHA
super funny .

sch was quite boring today , with the humid weather worse .
didnt get back any papers today , so nth much to say .
i am late for the 2nd time this yr , so suay luhs
there was a traffic jam because some animal was lying on the road thus causing a jam .
read from a newspaper that it was a deer ,
damn sad sia , kena knocked by some random car .
so detention after sch .
super boring , sch was quite empty by 4plus .
tmr will be quite a long day with cca going on .
shall sleep soon (:

hesitation kills

2010-03-02T20:34:00.000+08:00

today was a bad day , got back some of common tests marks .
flunked my eng badly , which is quite expected
did super badly for bio
totally screwed my mood today luhs
esp bio , was quite confident about my bio marks .
but in the end not up to my expectations .
how am i going to take a bio course in poly in the future sigh ..
there is a field trip to perth and i have a choice to go or not .
i can go but i am not going in the end .
just dun feel like goin , such a wasted chance right ?
it was quite ex anw for me , and mother dun really want me to go .
so i shall not go le ba , i hope i can score well in my other subjs
and freaking just get into the study mood which i dun have right now .
and i know it wun change even if i type this a million times .
i keep procrastinating luhs .
nationals is starting nxt week .
and i suddenly do not have the mood to play tabletennis .
why am i feeling so stress
will be going to thailand next next wk .
shall take a break over there

it may be a good thing , that i gave up on my last chance

steamboat !

2010-02-24T21:59:00.000+08:00

have been blogging for the past few days , too bored already haas .
sci today was quite screwed man , didnt study at all .
was happy with my maths test results :D
mr nara so efficient in marking our papers .
after sch went kb with meishian and yq , chatted alot of drama stuff .
funny like hell , LOLS went home at4plus after that
tmr geog , studying some parts here and there .
so many to memorise lorhs .
hope i can at least pass my geog (:
just ate steamboat just now :]
mother invitied friends to go our hse bai nian .
which means getting more hongbaos !! :D
i shall have not have so many negative thoughts abt not getting into the course i wanted .
its still many mths i can work hard into getting gd results for 'O' level .
so i shall work hard :D

more than enough

2010-02-23T20:57:00.000+08:00

common tests this week , eng was totally screwed , maths was okay ,
ss erm .. abit cmi , cannot really get to memorize the whole essay into my head .
tmr is sci liao , cui .. maybe studying abit only .
have been also tired this week , not enough sleep i guess .
hope i will be not so stress nxt wk after common test (:

damn sian today , the course i want to go into only had 80 spaces available in the whole of singapore ! bad news bad news..
damn sian luhs , dun really have a chance to go into that course already luhs ..

it is just a dog that i wanted for so many years ,
why must there so many arguments over it .
at least i know myself that i will have the responsibility to take care of it .
so hopefully i can get one this year ,
even if it is not allowed , i will get it no matter what :D

loser

2010-02-18T21:36:00.000+08:00

match with ges today , sucks to the max
especially me , didnt play well at all .
won 1 set and lost other 3 sets
somemore last set 9-11 sia
i was too nervous at that time ,
and did alot of stupid mistake .
hais , last yr le no chance to compete with them again .
if that match can win got chance get 3rd position luhs .
damn disappointed with myself .
dun talk abt it le .
went for shotput and high jump after match .
conclusion - FAILED
i am not even gd at all this at all
damn stupid luhs , today was such an unlucky day
common test coming and i had skipped alot of lessons due to competitions .
dun think can really catch up with my class
common test gg liao

went kb mac to eat with kartini wenxi and feli just now
talk alot of stuffs and crap
super funny haas
kartini dun understand chinese and she was laughing blindly LOLS
dman funny luhs she
just watched finish the 9pm show yu xi ren sheng
super nice man ! one of the rare singapore show i think that is nice
the main guy actor so cute and funny luhs . haas
i think i shld also support singapore show sometimes ^^
but taiwan dramas is still my preference lols
the 9pm show made my mood happy .
super nice luhs .
must go watch :D:D

haas no hmwk today , so happy
will be quite busy for this week
bro birthday celebration , go fren and ahma hse bai nian and so on .
it will be fun , and will make up for my ang baos
since i only get little only as i went to genting .
gym with kong they all tmr :] haas
must relax after every wk of school (:

saw my pri sch fren today at mrt ,
once a very gd fren of mine .
she is still now in volleyball ,
happy to see my pri sch fren after so many years .
it made me feel that it would be a better choice nearer to my house ,
so that i could see all my pri sch frens again .
though my pri sch life is not really a happy experience ,

but everything was just so simple back then ...

everything pays a price

2010-02-04T20:54:00.000+08:00

so match with kuo chuan pres today , won them 5-0 !
AND WE GOT INTO THE NATIONALS !!!! TOGETHER WITH C DIV :D
so happy luhs , but was quite disappointing during one set when we got 11-13 .
was like wth luhs . mayb was abit complacent at that time ,
but we still win afterall , next target .
gan eng seng , the sch we have been trying to win for the past 3yrs .
this time , we gotta win and get the 3rd position (:

sch was tiring ytd and today , was totally drained out ,
slept during most of the lesson , so disappointed with myself la
heard from cher going the course that i wanted have very limited spaces .
i suddenly wondered if i can ever get into the course i wanted .
i am so nervous now , what if i cant get into the poly and course i want ,
i am also not interested in other courses , sigh ...
i am not even working hard enough to achieve my targets .
freaking 8 more mths , times flies .
it has already been feb and march is gonna to come very soon .
i have my art to complete , geog to overcome .
and alot more subjs for me to study ,
quitting hcl may be a gd thing , but i seriously didnt make use of my time well .
and i even lost my bio text bk , how the hell did i lost it i duno ,
buying a new one is so ex luhs , and there is chem remedial tmr ,
i still do not even have the test tubes yet .
when can i really find the motivation to study ,
i am so screwed ...

busy events

2010-02-02T22:26:00.000+08:00

sch was fine this week (:　

at least i did not really sleep in class for the past one month .

i shall be consistent for the next 8-10mths :D
had been having a flu for this past few days ,
voice was like super weird today ,
but i still talk alot ,
which only made my voice worsen ,
but its better now :]
ytd went to eat sakae with jas ms and yq .
quite fun , eat till super full . lols
felt some achievement and somehow guiltiness after leaving sakae :X LOLS .
shall not tell what that means haas .
training mood was kinda slack today ,
duno why , but played quite a few matches and was sastified :]

father will be back tmr , so happy !
he is like going back and fro overseas since dec ,
finally coming back tmr .
he maybe goin back to work again , but he is staying at least till after cny :D
cny will be going genting , again ..
quite unique uh , going genting at cny . haas
but nvm , at least will have a break away from sch .
and after coming back will be common test gg man ,
hope can pass for all subjs , hope luhs .
but its quite impossible .

lets talk about happier subjs ,
there is a new drama airing after hai pai tian xin

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星光下的童话

this show is super nice though only come out for one epi only ,
the actors may not be very familiar to you all,but the most right one is the one who acts in kungfu dunk and fated to love you , super nice and i think the storyline very nice ,
so must watch !!!
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autumun's concerto ! this two drama is super nice .
must watch !!
u will sure get addicted it , esp the 2nd drama .
going end le sad ,
but more dramas are coming up .
shall put it up next time :D:D

hope sch will be a fun day tmr (:

practice till its gone

2010-01-24T21:01:00.000+08:00

have been quite busy this weekend , not out to play but other stuffs
sat, training , sl rehearsal , sun, tution .
which makes me no free time to do other things like watching drama haas .
match with amk sec is tmr , omg i am getting nervous now .
really hope to win them , its the last yr for us already .
we must get into the nationals .
3yrs plus of training ,
really hope to see results .
as what coach said , we must have 2ds .
determination and desire to win .
though my passion for tabletennis is always on and off , o
but i really want to win tmr .
jiayou tabletennis team !

a song that i have listened inspire me ,
maybe keeping quiet is not a bad thing after all ,

i shall move forward .
there will be one day when i will stop avoiding ,
10more mths ,
to head towards my goals and dream .

supposedly yes

2010-01-20T20:45:00.000+08:00

sch was geting tiring as each day passed by .
somehow my motivation to study is getting lower ...
damn sian , but sch was fine though ,
nth bad happened but it was quite boring luhs .
was super sian until i can close my eyes anytime .
i am preventing my head fron touching the table and i have suceeded in not slping haas :D
erm , maybe only half awake ? LOLS
these few days was so tired that make me feel very moody everytime i wake up .
and i am always waking up late like 6.45 ?? lols
is damn freaking late luhs , luckily got car transport
and i will always reach sch at 7.20plus just nice (:
but i know i must have a habit of waking up early .
didnt study anyth at all ytd and today ,
was planning to revise today but was lazy .
i shall sleep at 10 today to replenish my slp .
trainings for the next 3days .
sian but competition is coming so bobian .
but we will be getting our competition shirts :D
haas , so must train hard for this competition , jiayou !
i shall go watch my dramas now , just for today .
i shall tell myself to study from tmr onwards and stop procrastinating !!

i let myself down once again , there will be one day , where i can walk out of it ...

2010-01-15T21:22:00.000+08:00

so , another week has just past by ,
nth much happened in sch this week ,
was quite bored luhs ,
managed to concentrate in class and i didnt really slept
except for those non important lessons (:
haas but some topics and subjs just cant get into my head ,
especially chem and geog ,
which is making me wrecking my brains .
art also , got idea duno how to draw .
damn sian luhs ,
i think i too l gan chiong le luhs ,
its just starting of the year and i am alr thinking of my life in poly . LOLS .
my mind is thinking but my body is not doing anyth at all ,
hmwk left at the table half done ,=.=
especially chem , do one or two qn give up liao .
but i shall make myself to do finish for this weekend .
so training tmr, which is gonna be tiring ,
imagine waking up at 7 on a weekend .
so sad luhs , but competition is coming .
no choice ...
i know i have concentrate in class alot better than last year ,
but i am still not confident ,
thinking of the 'O' level exam ,
i am starting to get nervous ..
its like only jan luhs ?!
but nvm , its just one more year to freedom , jiayou !

strives for the best

2010-01-07T22:33:00.000+08:00

school have been alright so far , i guess .
was quite looking forward to sch everyday . lols
so have been banded to many class for diff subj .
the teachers that taught us this year are not bad and i am quite happy with it :]
at least i can concentrate better this year than last year ,
duno why , maybe because i am always seating on the front row . haas .
can understand better .
but there is always not enough sleep for me .
no matter how early i sleep , i will still be sleepy the next day ,
which is damn sian luhs .
but i will TRY not to sleep in class this year as 'O' levels is coming .

so went to ngeeann open house today ,
i have my targeted course already .
and i seriously hope i can go into that course (:
so i must work superhard this year ,
but i dun really have confidence to get the sch and course that i wanted .
but i shall work hard for this year
to get the course that i wanted .

so CCA exhibition tmr ,
need go help out .
will be quite busy this week i guess .
shall try to go home early from next week onwards ,
and work hard this year !

family days

2010-01-03T00:15:00.001+08:00

haven been staying at home for a few days .
spamming dramas and all ,
its abit wasted luhs , not treasuring the time to go out before sch started .
thought that i will have more motivation to do more homework if i camp at home .
but it didnt work out yea .
so bored luhs , practically doing the same thing everyday .
eat use com sleep .
but at least i manage to went out today ,
with mum aunt and bro .
went to queensway to eat katong laksa .
super nice !
there was alot of ppl shopping there today , quite crowded .
shop around and bought a few clothes haas .
although i have been there alot of times before with friends .
but i am still not very familiar with the place there LOLS
the katong laksa there seriously shiok . haas
after that went home and watch drama again .

2 more days for sch to reopen .
i hope i can do more meaningful things tmr ,
like doing my homework and preparing stuffs for 4th jan .
which will comes in just 2 DAYS time .
2DAYS !! so fast luhs .
hope can have a longer holiday but its impossible .
still freaking in a very lazy mood .
but i shall still be mentally prepared for 4th jan .
hope things turns out fine in sec4 ((:

a fresh start

2009-12-31T14:09:00.000+08:00

so today marks the end of 2009 , 2010 is a new year which most probably everyone is looking forward too .
many things have happened during this one whole year , but not really for me .
things are quite neutral this year , though there are times that i will be unhappy .
but at least things went quite well this year .
outings with clique are fun ,most of us have been through together for 2whole years ,
so hope that things will continue the same for next year (:
some things may have changed ,
but at least most of us changed for the better .
but still , i still hope for a even better year in 2010 :]
a better results and a better class .

i hope that things will be more peaceful next year,
and that our tabletennis team can go into the nationals :D
it will be a last year for everyone next year .
let it be a memorable one .

so , i shall enjoy watching the countdown today ,
on the tv i guess . haas .
maybe staying at home today too .
as i say , i shall spend more family day till school reopen . haas .
so lets await for 12am to strike for 2010 to begins ! :D

fun day

2009-12-28T21:03:00.000+08:00

so , went out with the meishian wenxi and yueqing today ,
ate mos burger and yueqing bought a bag in hub while waiting for wenxi .
after that went to plaza sing to find my pencil box haas .
thought that it would be a fun place but its actually quite boring t.t
walked awhile in daiso and felt tired .
went mac to slack and chatted freaking long lols
was quite drained by that time .
wanting to go back already but saw a purple pencil box in one of a random shop (:
it is totally plain and big haas .
but quite nice i think
yueqing bought a waterbottle .
went back after that .

ate loy kee with mum and bro
damn nice luhs :D
cause i was quite hungry at that time . haas
after that did grocery shopping in ntuc :]
was fun as i seldom pei my mum go ntuc shop
it was fun pushing the trolley around while u put the things one by one into it . haas
carry alot of ntuc bags home .
what a long day !

have been goin out for like continuous 2days luhs .
freaking tired now . but i am gonna sacrifice my sleep and watch dramas ! HAHA
shall most probably stay at home tmr and most probably family days for this last week before sch reopens :]
shall be a good daughter before sch starts :D

clique outing !

2009-12-28T11:43:00.000+08:00

have not been updating my blog for more than one month , was damn lazy plus i was very busy during the holidays . i was busy working during almost 3 quarter of my holidays .
it is quite boring but after getting my 'salary' , all the hardwork was worth it (:
so went out with clique today .
it has been so long since we have a clique outing together .
so we went to roam around for like about 3hours before we ate sakae .
chatted and slacked there .
after that we went to prawn fishing ! haas .
we sat there for like an hour plus to catch prawns
but ..............
conclusion=0 prawns caught .
was so disappointing luhs . quite waste money lorhs ..
but nvm . the process was still quite fun :]
after that went to play pool for awhile .
bao thrashed me .
he improved damn alot lorhs ..
after that shared milk tea from koi cafe and then home .

it was quite a fun day i guess :D

school are gonna reopen and i have pratically done nothing yet . must buck up for next year seriously . hope things will get more smoothly next year (:

the magic in making time stop are photos .

2009-11-19T20:41:00.001+08:00

have not been blogging for quite long as i am lazy .
quite alot of things happened recently like yijie bdae and so on .
it was quite a surprise yea .
can find the details in jaslyn blog haas .
went to bugis ytd with jas des cher and weekiat to choose weekiat present .
walked so long and finally chose a everlast bag for him .
ate at the foodcourt and played true or dare .
so funny luhs LOLS .
information shall remained confidential . haas ..
today stayed at home to watch drama .
taiwan dramas are so interesting luhs , introducing 海派甜心 and 下一站,幸福(Autumn's Concerto)
both shows are very nice . but their stories are very different .
one is a comedy and one is a very sad love story .
must go watch :]
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FTOUWrP-ca4
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LlM5jnP0mz4
go watch this 2 shows . super nice !
but of course i wun forget my zhong ji san guo :D
lols . but all the shows must wait until weekend then will come out new epi .
damn sian luhs . need wait ..
finally in the holiday mood now .
got loads of homework too but i am so lazy . haas .
goin to watch drama again .
i shall post again when i have the time :]

when u are so deluded in something ,
you will find out when you wake up one day ,
everything will be gone .

ups and downs

2009-11-06T21:56:00.000+08:00

long time nvr updated have been quite busy lately . haas
having sl camp and prep lessons can so tiring .
sl camp was quite fun learn . learn quite alot of things :]

first day
did nothing much . was in group 3
there was des kuanfei baoling and caroline in my group
others dun really know them ..
so the first day did some ice breakers and get to know the group well .
did goal setting , our leaders was virgina and jiayi .
after that was dinner , was quite delicious and then was the principal talk and that was the end of 1st day .
the dorm was quite comfortable luhs . slp until veri shiok :D

second day
did improvised rafting and rock climbing .
i was the belayer for a few ppl
belaying was so fun lorhs . haas
got a 'flying' feeling lols ..
didnt get to climb as there was no time plus i dun really like to do rock climbing :X

improvised rafting was fun but me and caroline veri suay keep sliding off the barrel

and we dropped into the sea 2 times !

was wet all over luhs .. and there was another talk conducted by mrs sidhu .

after that mr chng carry a cake into the dining hall .

i thought there was a teacher bdae .

but i didnt realise the cake is for me .. haas .

its damn surprising luhs :]

and H&F department sang a bdae song to me <3

they best liao lorhs :] special thanks to ms chew and mr chng :D

second night was the best , the weather was so gd that all of us dun wan to wake up the next morning haas .

oh ya , and thanks for those who wish me happy bdae :D

was really happy to recieve all those msges :]

third day

land expedition !

thought it wun be so tiring but i was WRONG ...

it was so tough luhs , having to walk from Labrador park to changi .

but we managed to succeed in the end so happy luhs . although we onli got 2nd t.t

but at least we try , just like what mr chng say . 'it is ok to lose , but it is not ok not to try'

when we reached back the campsite , we all had to go back to eastcoast park to cheer on the other two groups . who didnt manage to complete the land expedition on time .

but by 9 , everybody was back :]

was quite a experience that day .

in the night gave mr chng a surprise as he goin to leave our department already .

we went downstairs in the middle of the night and sang fall for you for him :]

changed version . haas .. so nice lorhs ! lyrics created by the creative JASMINE KONG ! haas .

after that chatted with mr chng for very longgg ....

till 2am plus everybody cannot tahan by 1plus go slp expect a few ppl left :]

went to slp and was super tired the next day

ps . thanks angie for the first present u gave me at camp , veri nice :]

fourth day .

everybody legs was aching ..

cannot even walk properly luhs ..

we had to do area cleaning in the dining hall ..

quite gd luhs .. at least we are not so 'lucky' to get the toilets lols .

so clean up , took photos , debrief , homed .

it was a long fourth day but it was so fun luhs ..

instructor 'iscanda' (duno how to spell)

and augustine was very good instuctor ..

thanks for the story telling 'iscanda'

and the very calm and steady augustine :D

we will rmb u :]

so lets talk about yesterday .

it was a very long and surprsing day .

a big thank you to yijie , huimin , jaslyn , syuhrah , cherie , jasmine , meishian ,

sarah , wenxi , xunhao , jiaqing , chengkong , paul , joel ,

baohui , arel , iggy and weijie for celebrating my bdae haas .

thanks for the cake and the meal . haas ..

and lastly , thanks for the present YIJIE and HUIMIN !!!

very nice <33 will keep it well :]

and ....
HAPPY BIRTHDAY MOH WEN XI !!!

stay cheerful always yea :D

so went to celebrate wenxi bdae at swensen .
ate main course with ms while others ate ice cream buffet .
took alot of photos and sang bdae song for her . haas ..
it was such a fun day . haas ..

there will be lots more bdae coming next up ,
must save money already .
no more large amount of spending after today :]

there will be class bbq on sunday .
hope to have fun :D

2009-10-17T11:29:00.000+08:00

results was quite bad .
not up to my expectati0ns . as usual fail my pure geog ..
others was just Cs or Bs .. no A ..
quite bad luhs .. must buck up liao .
so ytd was a halfday went to sch and slack a whole day
quite fun , play cards and so on .. haas
got back my overall sci results .. 50plus only . t.t
after sch , yueqing went my house as i went to prepare
introduced her to zhong ji san guo HAHA .
after that meet ms and wx at amk mrt and headed off to bugis .
walk around in bugis in bought quite a number of things .
ate in mac chatted and went home ..
was quite a fun day ..
spent time crapping quite alot . lols

ohya and after sch holidays all sec3s must have extra lessons for two weeks !
damn sian lorhs .. but must work harder liao , in order to get better results for next year :]

i duno whats happening but if things want to turn out this way , its alright .

what a day .

2009-10-12T22:59:00.002+08:00

have been slacking these few days .
went out to novena and then orchard on friday ..
quite fun , ate icecream :D
bought a wallet from punkstar haas ..
ytd slack at home .. watch taiwan drama all the way .
fu qi you an kang is damn nice can ..
watch finish the show liao .. yijie still chionging HAHA .
zhong ji san guo still must wait damn sian lorhs ! waiting for the exciting part xD
haas .. i tink i am too into taiwan dramas liao :]

so today went to sch as usual ..
thk bored like siao sia .. nth to do de ..
then art damn pissed . cause i duno what to draw ,
i somehow screwed the canvas then need redo =.= stupid luhs .
after recess was bio get back my marks , get 48/70 .
quite happy liao luhs .. envious dz and ms , get so high lorhs ..
haas . ce went to the canteen .
went to join sarah they all to play uno as i was too bored . lols
play a game which is damn funny which managed to get through my boredom till after sch :]
hcl was quite bored luhs .. but i managed to concentrate in class haas .
went wenxi house after that .. wenxi was using her com while i slept halfway lols .

went syuhrah house for hari raya after that . the snacks was so nice lorhs ..
ate quite alot haas . played concentration .. so funny , lols .
went back around 9plus .

tmr is interclass games if i am not wrong .
i am the h&f department and i still duno got interclass lols ..
although girls nvr participate powerball . but hope the guys can win for soccer :D

another day to pass by tmr ..
and cca will be resume !!
quite happy luhs .. but duno if my skills rusty alr anot . haas ..
so hope tmr would be a fun day :D

there is nothing i can do .

2009-10-07T16:46:00.000+08:00

here i am blogging again . haas

i am so bored ..

tmr is the last day of exam le ! so happy :D

but it is the two difficult subj maths and chem .. sian .

hope i could do well tmr and the way to do well is to study ,

but i am damn slacking right now . lols

so today was bio and art paper .

bio was okay , but art ... damn cui .

i spent one and the half hour wasting my time as i draw until damn messy .

lucky still got enough time to draw

but i think it is worst than my mid yr exam.

hope i can pass my art .

stay back in sch for awhile after exam .

was crapping with cher arel iggy and javin .

iggy was so called chionging his dnt lols .

father fetch me home at around 4 after that :]

i am so gonna study now . having leow later .

haas . hope can concentrate :)

please get back up .

why must it turn out like this .

the first time , i felt that everything is goin haywire .

not perfect anymore .

HAPPY BIRTHDAY HUIMIN ! xD

2009-09-30T23:35:00.000+08:00

just uploaded finish huimin photo .

finally , stupid com got so many problems fb cannot upload .

duno why . anw , the photos are inside my blog now as it is the only way i can upload my photos lols

so haven been updating for like quite long . has been quite busy these few days .
was celebrating jasmine bdae on saturday . FUN ! haas .

ate steamboat and played pool . didnt really play much pool as i am damn noob haas
so i became the one who took photos instead haas .
sleptover at jas hse cause it was too late haas .

sunday , rest at home whole day but didnt study at all =.=

monday . had eng and chi paper 1 . eng damn cui , duno how to write .
i think i write out of point lorhs . haas .
chinese still okay luhs .
but scared also will out of point .
sit at hall so shiok lorhs , got aircorn . but i sat at first row damn sian ...
haas

ytd was chi and eng paper 2 . eng damn diff was like half sleeping and half doing .
as i slept quite late and i no time to buy coffee . lols
father came back from vietnam , he bought me a pair of shoes and a watch :D

today i became more clever as i already bought coffee ytd alr .
drank in class and not so sleepy alr after that .
ss was still okay ! mus thanks dezheng for the ss notes !!! hehe xD
but got one 12mark de i anyhow write didnt read abt that one sian luhs .

after exam went with yijie , dz and xh to hub eat .
went foodcourt .yijie crap alot ..
anyhow bomb me ..
i think i am too easy to cheat especially today .
i fall in yjie trap like more than 3times !? LOLS .
damn dumb lah me . still trick me that she got younger sis =.= haas
went to buy cake at hub . DIY de lehs . we bought a cake and strawberries and candles from ntuc
and all decorate ourselves oh ya and the icing sugar damn diff to squeeze lorhs .
in the end the cake abit screwed but got put in effort de okay !
lols .went study with yijie syuhrah huimin after that . was like trying to study ? but ended up chatting instead .
crap alot haas . quite fun .
father fetch me after that :]

heard from jas that there is an earthquake happening in few areas of singapore and that woodlands is one of them . jas say sk happen around 6.15 and my whole family is not home at that time . didnt realise it until jas tell me haas . wonder how it feels like lols .

sian have not been studying these few days .
dun hve the motivation .
especially my art haven even started yet . damn cui luhs .
hope that i do not fail my eng and ss t.t
and there is leow tmr , hope can do more revision tmr :D
everybody jiayou for exam yea :]

2009-09-30T22:45:00.000+08:00

worst .

2009-09-23T23:31:00.000+08:00

had not been posting for a very long time .
went to sch per normal today .
everyth was fine .
slept quite alot in a few lessons . i tink i too pro liao lorhs . haas
keep sleeping ...
at managed to concentrate at eng lesson .
went home after sch .
jus did finish history hmwk .
felt a sense of sastification ? haas bullshit .
was lyk not focusing on the hmwk but tv instead lols .
mus buck up liao . a few more days to go ~ ...

time after time i felt like turning away . but i didnt .

zero motivation

2009-09-09T21:59:00.000+08:00

today was quite a tiring day ,
woke up at lyk 7plus.
the alarm seriously pissed me off . lols
reached dovin hse there the coffeeshop abt 8plus .
weekiat was the first to reach lols .
then ate breakfast with xh dovin paul and weekiat :]
reached school at 9.30 , jus in time for chem remedial .
was quite quiet lurhs . as there is less than 10ppl in th class :]
manage to understand some of the concept .
mr chen pro ! :D
after tat went dovin hse to slack with paul and xh ,
played cards , loser mus say out secrets . haas
quite fun . xh soon left after .
huang came , played mahjong awhile and called kfc xD
damn funny luhs , when they ordering the food . lols .
after tat went mac wif cher . to study , did abit of geog but cant find any reference.
sian luhs . went home after tat .
to changi to fetch my father bak . haas. .
was so tired luhs .
tmr still nid wake up early in the morning for the sl bonding thingy .
argh , damn tired .
hope tmr will be fun ba ,
still got wet activities somemore . lols ,

oh yea and finding more taiwan dramas to watch now .
this is so boring .... =.=
zhong ji san guo chionging mood off . haha .
decided to wait for more episodes to come out xD

i am so damn slacking right now .
where is my motivation ...

boring .

2009-09-07T22:49:00.000+08:00

night cycling on sat . fun !
ride around 46km ?
dun really find it far , cos my group got alot of fun ppl lyk
huimin , yijie , huli , wanyi and a few more ppl
poor jasmine , diff group as us t.t
was chatting and gossiping while cycling luhs .
haas damn funny .
tok alot especially to yijie and huimin :]
know some facts and stuff . but i shall kept quiet about this :]
3incidents took place ,
so scary luhs .
when we were cycling halfway,
someone shout from nowhr .
then u realise virgina fell into the drain .
was shocked luhs !
but lucky there were no serious injury ;
but around 30mins later another incident happen .
wanyi acc cut into hm way and both fell down .
even more shocked .
they had a small sprain i tink .
but lucky aso not veri serious .
hope they are well by now :]
was lyk quite careful after that .
finally reached back changi village .
saw ah gua ! omg luhs haas .
then slept sitting down at bball court . lols
while some others playing cards .
awhile later mr nara call me wake up to put bike .
sian luhs .
was slping until so shiok lols
tried to get bak to slp after tat but cant . stupid =.=
then went to find des and nich to chat . haas
i tink they aso same as me lorhs .
cannot slp . haas
after awhile ,the whole sky suddenly bcame bright
like within 10secs !?
haas . dun even realise luhs .
was lyk quite tired by then alr .
reached sch at around 8plus . was raining =.=
lucky got yijie father fetch us . thanks her lots :]
took mrt wif sharlene . she stay yishun :]
at least got some one pei me to take mrt haas .
was glad that mrt got place to seat , if not my leg sure damn ache :x
reached home was really tire out alr lorhs .
but slept awhile only haas .
oh yea , jasmine learn how to cycle free hands !
congrats her man LOLS .
as to how she learnt it ,
is damn funny . shant elaborate abt it . haas xD

today , make use of the time to slp .
abit regret sia . didnt meet cher day all in the morning to study .
woke up at 12plus :x
felt them restless luhs
dun feel lyk goin out ,
dun feel lyk studying .
jus feel lyk slacking at home .
but after resting for a whole day .
my energy is back again ! :D
tmr studying with xh they all .
haas , hope can really study :]

i believe i am trying ,

just abit harder and i will go fine .

jiayou .

busy busy .

2009-09-04T23:51:00.000+08:00

i think i am too bored .
to have a post almost everyday . haas, but nvm .
sch was quite fun today , haas .
first 2periods was chemistry , trying my best to concentrate .
almost fell asleep . haha .
at least i can understand wad chen is teaching today :D

after tat was pe , lessons in class as it was drizzling .
mr kwek took over our class .
he talk about stress and alot of topics .
quite interesting ba :]

art nth much . jus nid do composition . nid paint ,
gg le luhs . haven even complete my developement yet . screwed =.=

after sch went hub wif van and kong .
chitchat and peii kong to kbmac .
haas . camped at mac for lyk 3hours . LOLS ?
it was quite dumb luhs , to be slacking at mac alone while kong was working.
lols . damn zibi luhs ! haas .
but manage to did some of the hmwk .
at least chinese i manage to do finish :]
went to meet xh dey all for leow after tat .
joel and xh was damn zibi in the bus luhs . l0lls
crapping like siao xP haas .

reached leow . dun feel lyk doin any work .
damn tired lorhs . haas .
then jus slack about and talk .
did a few sums only t.t
jus reached home .

oh and there is night cycling tmr . haas .
hope it will be fun ! xD

OBS gathering :D

2009-09-02T23:23:00.000+08:00

have been busy this few days ,
out wif jas dey all on monday ,
obs gathering ytd ,
paintball today .
though it was very tiring , but it was quite fun .

went kbox and then swimming on mon . haas
so funny luhs .
heart talk wif jasmine . haas

ytd obs gathering was also quite fun .
took alot of pics and stuffs , went arcade and pizza hut .
meet up wif alot of obs frens .
happy to see them again :]

today , went for sep programme . paintball.
was quite looking forward to it .
kenneth fell down while playing the first round .
his cut was so deep luhs .
so scary , hope he can recover soon :)
continued the match after tat .
won most of the games haas .
the 'bullets' was damn pain luhs .

after tat went pepper lunch eat .
thanks javier for the 2dollar meal ! haas .
reached home at 7plus .
handball competition tmr .
everyone mus jiay0u ! :D

charmaine nai ! clear all your thoughts away , no more illusions .

thousands of words .

2009-08-30T21:14:00.000+08:00

haas , blogging again :D
went for amazing race ytd .
was so fun luhs !
were suppose to go around tampines to find stations to do some activities .
at first was quite enthu de lorhs .
but first game 50/100 points . t.t
mood drop by half le lorhs .
we got alot more of activities such as magic tricks
sorting out cards and alot more ,
got kayaking also !
its the most fun de lorhs .
me and jasmine was quite pro at it as we had experienced it b4 through OBS :D
the amazing race ended at 6plus .

though we didnt get to win . but it was quite fun :]
ms chew treat us pastamania after tat .
thanks her alot l0rhs .
she veri gd luhs :D
played games and sabo ppl to eat pizza with tobasco . HAAS
reached home at 12plus .
so late luhs :x

today ,
went to cityhall with our class ppl :]
got xh,dovin,joel,sinyee,sarah,yi shan,nich,weekiat and dezheng :]
mostly with the class committee as we are goin to buy teachers day present
went to eat subway . shiok ! haas
then go wok around marina square to buy presents .
after tat went to amk mac to eat and slack :]
haas quite a fun day today :D
reach home at 8plus

should i continue this way , or not .

obs !

2009-08-23T19:11:00.000+08:00

hey i have decided to create another blog
its similar to my past blog but nvm ..
jus decided to recreate it lols .
its damn random la , jus out of boredom :]

so i shall elaborate about my OBS camp :D

so the first day ,
went to sch with a quite happy mood .
as i was very looking forward about the camp
so sat bus to punggol jetty to gather first .
ms chew accompanied with us for awhile and sat cab back (if i am not wrong)
realise my group have a lot of malays , but dun really mind luhs .
shant be racist haas .
so reached our base camp pulau ubin :]
pack our stuff and our instructor is called evan :]
he look so cute luhs . haas
so our activities for first day was kayaking ! :D
instructor taught us the capsized drill
partner with yanling and lala .
quite fun .
though didn't expect to get wet on the first day . haas
after tat still got abit of activities and went to bathe .
so surprised that the toilet is so clean luhs
it is like a normal looking toilet with cubicles lols .
so bathe already and started pitching the tent.
my job was to do cooking ! xD
so fun luhs . heating up the food and stuff .
but i damn suay . cut my finger on the first day . LOLS .
dumb sia me . go touch the sharp edge of the can food cover .
but dinner was delicious luhs . got bake beans luncheon meat and peanuts .
shared with aiysah(dunohow to spell :X) form da mai
she is a very cute and sweet girl lorhs . haas
after tat went to tent sleep with yanling lala and edwina(pasir ris sec)
slept quite well that night :]

on DAY 2 ,
did high elements . omg
not really looking forward to that luhs .
as i am abit scared of heights :X
did the belay school .
and realise it was not so scary after all,
but after that was rock climbing .
so scary luhs . i was the last few to climb .
very disappointed with myself after tat . was one of the fews which didnt manage to complete it
felt quite down after tat
next , was trekking .
we had to pack our things in a yellow bag pack for a 3days2nights camp outing .
was damn tiring lorhs .
reached the place called something kekek . lols
there got alot of sand flies , ants and mosquito .
make me feel damn irritated luhs . haas
ate maggie mee :D
nicenice !
evan eyes was stung by something during that night thus he is being sent bak to the medical centre
so sad luhs .
our group amundsen all missed him alot .
saw jasmine group armstrong ! :D
was so happy luhs . can see jasmine shi ting and syuhrah :D
this made me happier :]
went to slp . was suppose to do night duty but nobody called us wake up .
they say armstrong did extra hours .
a big thanks to them yea . :D

the THIRD DAY ,
was improvised rafting ,
we managed to succeed .
after doing a failed one ytd :x
managed to lauch it at the quarry ,
jumped down into the quarry aso .
was so shiok luhs ..
was lyk heaven when we were inside the water .
cos it was very clear and clean ..
it was the most shiok thing after we reached kekek luhs . haas
it seems lyk we had just taken a bathe :]
so after tat , we set off to trekking again .
it was so tough luhs .
oh ya , we changed instructor ,
from jill , to marie and finally faizulah(not sure of the spelling)
they all very nice to us luhs .
but i still missed evan alot t.t
heard that he is being sent home .
we trekked to the east and the west again . took one whole day to complete trekking luhs
i almost gave up half way and wanted to go home . but my groupmates , especially ahamad from damai sec . and daniel from dubai i tink haas, encouraged me .
they kept toking to me so as to keep me distracted from the tiredness .
faizulah aso . keep telling me about his stories being an instructor , really thank them alot luhs .
finally reached the second campsite .
there is more open space and is better than kekek luhs .
starting to get use of the environment already .
kept crapping around with lala and yanling during the camp haas
did the usual things and prepared for the sea expedition the next day :]
as i am the IC for the 4th day with ahmad azmi and yanling .
and with the armstrong IC .
8 of us nid to co operate with each other to plan for the kayaking next day.

THE FOURTH DAY ,
had to wake them up at 6plus for the sea expedition ,
were delayed for quite sometime and the i was quite worried that we will no be able to complete the expedition in time .
as if we were delayed and when low tide comes in , we will be stuck in the swamp and be walking on the mud instead .
i was with yanling and jasmine for the kayaking . we were the right sweepers .
to keep the other members on the track :D
it was quite fun luhs .
though at the swamp , we were quite pissed as we keep goin the wrong pathway .
and the navigator ahmad was quite pissed with himself luhs .
but we managed to find our way and get out of the swamp :D
it wasnt really bcos of the navigator that we went the wrong way .
we must also be grateful to ahmad shi ting and syuhrah who lead us through the sea expedition :]
finally reached back our base camp luhs.
was so happy that we manage to complete our final expedition :D
instructor gave us a bonus , OMG
it was the jetty jump !
damn scary luhs .
but managed to overcome the fear . yay ! :]
but yanling got phobia of it .
everyone cheered her on .
and she managed to succeed "accidentally" in the end . haas
after tat we get to bathe and had celebration cooking .
armstrong was seriously gd at cooking luhs .
cant really compare to them but our food aso not bad . haas
got "nasi goreng" , "nasi lemak " and mario=milo+oreo
damn nice luhs .
but i damn full at tat time .
so kop all the fruits and their milo fondue instead xP
know quite a few people from armstong .
ameer tat joker and some people ,
dun rmb their names haas .
they are so friendly luhs . haas
at nite was quite pissed ,
broke a tent ,
was so guilty luhs
made the guys have to sleep w/o a tent .
but luckily the instructor got give them extra poles at around 1.30am
felt less guilty but was still pissed at myself luhs .
so careless l0rhs t.t

LAST DAY ,
woke up early in the morning ,
was irritated wif some stuff , but nvm
.wrote journal sheets and pack our stuff to our own camping bags .
gather up with armstrong and did a cheer .
so funny luhs , the cheer song .
exchange email with them and went bak to punggol jetty to buy OBS shirt and so on .

missed my group members luhs .
especially ahmad , danial , aiyash , farah , min2 and other group members. and from armstrong ameer too . haas
really hope to see them again :]
from this camp , somehow i learned to become for matured . mayb ?
haas . and learn how to cope with things using different methods .
as what the instructors say ,
we must bring out what we learn from the camp , and not to leave in the camp .
i will make use of what i learn from there and apply it to my life :D
go go AMUNDSEN and ARMSTRONG o9! xD